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Freaking dream

Wed Nov 5, 2008, 3:29 PM
Yeah, I said I won't post new journals on dA and it would be on FA. Well, in fact, it will apply after this post. I don't want all my watchers on FA to see my bad mood: people do live in happiness (well, the majority...), I'd prefer them to stay in happiness.

Anyway. Just to rant here that I feel bad. Like, very, very, very bad. I needed (small quantities of) alcohol in order to sleep. I get very hurting headaches (not related to alcohol at all) all the day. I feel sick and ill at ease as soon as I get up, with potential stomach aches. I'm not hungry at all, too (I've lost 5 kg the past week).

Also, I feel I am surrounded with betrayal. I hardly trust people, now. For reasons I don't know, though, I use Facebook to give people regular news about what's happening in my house. If you go over there, you will see that this betrayal has started with my mother. She used information I told to my aunt, directly to attack me.

We say that dreams can help understand things that happened previously. Well, I know some of my dreams are premonitory (you don't believe in that? Hell, two times, I received the confirmation that, through the kilometers, it works...). And to know that… is frightening.

The dream involved three people: me, my brother, and someone else. We were in my parents' car, traveling. Us three, inside the car, behind (sorry, I don't know the words for it). This someone was doing things to my brother that they were hiding from me as soon as my sight wasn't directed towards the outside of the car (watching through the window) but towards them both.

Betrayal. You have no idea how it hurts, how it does affect you and the people you care about. I wish you it will never happen to you. Because you'll feel like total shit, and your school results will fuck up your whole life if you don't try to fix your problems.

Yush. Life of a young adult who has NO EFFING CLUE about what kind of guy he will become later. *Watches his bank account, US markets, prices for studies, and sighs*. How funny. I've had a first depression late June. Now I have another one, and I've met some new furs thanks to this. Told them deep (and "bad") things about me (like, only Shippo does exactly know them), very easily. Like if I didn't care about my life any more. Geez. If I disappeared, now, what could happen?

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: his darkest thoughts
  • Reading: Obama's issues for immigration
  • Watching: life vanishing around him
  • Eating: nothing since yesterday evening (pizza)

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  • Current Residence: Sucy-en-Brie, France
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: L
  • Print preference: A4
  • Interests: Penguins
  • Favourite movie: Happy Feet, March of the Penguins
  • Favourite band or musician: Coldplay, Émilie Simon
  • Favourite genre of music: Film soundtracks and scores
  • Favourite artist: See my FurAffinity.net page, I'm not keen on enumerating them all T.T
  • Favourite poet or writer: Matt
  • Favourite photographer: Samuel Blanc
  • Favourite style of art: Vector, realistic interpretations of animals
  • Operating System: Ubuntu Linux
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch
  • Shell of choice: GNOME
  • Wallpaper of choice: High-resolution penguins wallpapers
  • Favourite game: Lock On, Ace Combat 6
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: Mumble (and all the others Happy Feet\'s)
  • Personal Quote: Put your flippers on the air!
  • Tools of the Trade: Wacom Bamboo tablet, GIMP

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:icontitash-the-meerkat:
*Me repallais plus que t'étais sur DA toi* ^^

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:iconditi:
Hihihi ! Mais j'aime pas trop dA, peut-être parce que je m'en sers trop mal…
Need advices! :D
:iconraynaron:
Hey thanks for faving the "Lone penguin".

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I'm a penguin and I'm so accidentally cool
:iconvolts48:
thx for faving "Passion"

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:iconkatiezpm:
thanks for the fave :+fav: :)

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Katie says:
the nasty stuff
The Diggertron says:
nasty stuff?
Katie says:
yeah, the porny stuff
:iconrimou:
Merci pour le watch :3

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A flower ?
:iconantartic-penguin901:
Thank you for the fave, Diti! I hope that you are doing well these days! :glomp::heart::D

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YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

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1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

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Paws are better than hands.
Paws cannot forge signatures. Paws cannot pull gun triggers. Paws cannot make obcene gestures.
And so I'm proud to be a furry!
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Je ne savais pas que tu étais là, toi furry, que je croise assez regulierement sur FF =^^=

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